When I worked in the mall, I always thought mall-walkers were silly. Now I have become one. I had lofty plans of joining the gym, but the fact that my c-section incision started to open up and refuses to heal has left me with only one exercise option - walking. The problem is, it is just too darn hot here to walk outside, especially with a little baby, and I am a little depressed with my meetings with the scale, so off to the mall I went. Walking around the perimeter of the mall is a struggle. I am surrounded by yummy smelling food that I can't eat, and beautiful clothes that I'm too fat to wear. I try to think of it as motivation; one day I will be able to shop in those stores and buy those clothes I tell myself. But deep down I fear that I will never get there, or that no matter what I weigh clothes will still look awful on me. Why do I torture myself like this?
After my walk through temptation land, I let Topher play at the kids play area in the mall for a while. He has been a little hesitant there after some bigger kid pushed him down one time. I hope he will get his confidence back soon. After about 5 minutes of clinging to my leg he finally went to go play, but he still ran back over to me every couple minutes. I had a nice time watching him play with the other kids and chatting with another super nice mom.
Today I put on a pair of jeans that I bought after I had Topher because I could never fit back into my pre-pregnancy pants. They felt huge. They were literally falling off of me. I decided to be brave and marched to the back of the closet where I had stashed my pre-Topher clothes. I pulled out my former favorite pair of jeans and tried them on. They fit! Sort of. They are a little snug, and give me a bit of a fat roll above the waistband. But I can actually pull them all the way up, zip, AND button them. Now if I can just make it through the day without any damage to my internal organs, I'll be good.
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